I hear you screaming.I don't have the answers for you but I do hear you and I can listen,You can vent your feelings whenever you need.I myself have had problems with feeling It's like I'm numb and nothing matters but I'm trying to work on it.Do you see a counsellor and are you on any meds to try and help.Don't despair there are people you can talk to Hopefully I'm just the first of many.Message me any time even if it's just to ramble and vent,I might not have the answers but I will listen,I have a 24 yr old son with OCD and Tourette Syndrome and Asperger traits so I do understand feelings of detachment,I also have OCD and depression was also an alcoholic and addicted to codeine,they were my coping mechanisms.As you can see I do understand where your coming from. Keep in contact,try not to despair-Take Care Denise
Many years ago i was on Clonadeine (forgive the poor spelling i do not remember how it was spelled) But i did not like taking it and it was more for my tourets but it had a claming effect i later discover this is what its meant to do. It slowed me down and would make me tired and when i was young this was fine i would nap at least once a day. As i grew older i did not want to take it and i began a phobia that has lasted forever i can only take small pills now without chewing them and at that time that was not an option so i stopped them and found my own ways to cope and for a time i over came the things that held me down i was doing great. So no i havent seen anyone in a long time having no insurance dosent really help ethier and i keep mean to see if this clinic by me has one but things just keep getting in the way.
Thank-you for your time i hope this answers your question. People on this site have bothered me before by saying i was avoiding the question.